Fifteen Minutes of Scrawl

"Without You" by Jonathan Larson covers death, breakups, and addiction. It also has the theme of things going on around you after a loss. I am taking some of these themes and many of Larson's words, but tweaking them to be more personal after losing my dad. Without you The words cross The food cooks The stars trek Without you Your pics gaze Your locket sits Your grandson plays Your art's whole Your marbles roll Your children tried Without you The earth warms The cloud forms But you've died Without you Without you The vice grips The glass empties The flask pours Without you My books shut My plants bloom My candles glow My dog yelps My friend helps I'll be a bride Without you The Earth spins The person sins But you've died Without you Our world endures— Mem'ries revive— But I knew you, only you, lonely you, within me you Without you Without you Our backs creak Our joints pop Our skin feels Without you Our mouths move Our hairs grow Our senses grasp Our e...

I am in need of support these days. Here are some ways to do that. Initiate conversation with me (text, DM, call, whatever floats your boat) Provide me with food (gift card, cooking, reimbursing for takeout, going out with me, etc.) Help me clean Watch reality TV with me Assist with sorting my dad's things Go plant shopping with me Put together some new things I bought with me Hug me Send me mail Give me a safe space to cry Be understanding when I'm not reaching out as much or am a bit distant even when we're in person Brush and/or braid my hair Scratch and/or massage my back If you want to get me a thing, get in touch! I have a variety of things I want from small plant pals to larger furniture (if you want it to be a surprise--flowers and scented candles are always welcome) Keep reaching out even as time goes on (I have a fear that people are going to forget) (Prompt by me) Photo by Austin Kehmeier on Unsplash

Time for the first part of the tell all! Why do Brandon and Julia have matching coats? Especially these matching coats? How many suitcases did Stacey and Florian bring? Wow I'd forgotten about Ari and Bini Lol to Josh poking his head out and then hiding again Florian, that was problematic Gino...you're giving evil Lol the show acting like they didn't plan on Jasmine being last for her pregnancy reveal Sophie...you're making a poor choice So are you, Natalie Rob, don't do the accent Wow, Rob, don't call Jasmine "a pregnant whore" Aaand we've escalated to throwing shoes Okay, Rob sucks, but like him selling sexual pictures of himself isn't what makes him a bad guy Gino, don't say "hoe" Rob, you can't say "fuck that baby" Aaand we've escalated to throwing shoes again Of course Brandon's parents are on a cruise Okay, why is everyone weighing in on Brandon and Julia's fight? Oop I need to watch "Between t...

Now that my apartment is pretty full of plants, they need buddies! Glass Angler Fish Plant Pals, House plant and Fairy Garden Decor (still deciding on color) Blob Fish Plant Pals, House plant and Fairy Garden Decor Handmade Plant Accessory/ Decor - Ranchu goldfish Plant Buddy Adorable Crystal Gnomes! | 1.9" | Gnome Collector Dream | Wizard Crystals | Cottagecore Vibes | Choose Your Material (not sure which material tbh) Miniature Gnome Figurine Fairy Garden Dollhouse Alien Plant Buddy, Ceramic Alien, Garden Art, Plant Stake, Mini Green Alien, Whimsical Alien, Handmade Alien, Garden Lover's Gift, Alien Art Pteranodon Pot Buddy | Dinosaur Plant Hanger | Garden Decor | Gift for Plant and Dino Lovers | British Design Hug Me Love Heart Ghost Plant Pot Pal, Friend Figurine, Sculpture, Halloween, Spooky Season, Glow in the Dark, Cute Clay, Valentines Day (Pastel Green, Plant Pal, Pink Heart) Pumpkin Topped Mushroom, Toadstool Sculpture, Figurine, Handmade Keychain, Novelty, Charm, Cu...