Fifteen Minutes of Scrawl

I'm angry. And I don't (at the moment) want to be talked out of it. I struggle, often, with expressing or even just sitting with my emotions. I feel like even the photo I chose for this post was more reserved or toned down than how I feel.  But, this is my trying. I'm not going to time this post, just going to write until I feel done, whenever that may be. In this post, I'm going to focus on the anger I feel around my dad and my dad's death. Though, don't get me wrong, I'm also angry about a lot of things going on in my city, in my country, and in the world. My dad chose alcohol over me and my brother. There is no way around this fact. Yes, when I am less angry, I can be more reasonabl and recognize that addiction is a disesase and he didn't have control over it. But, right now, I want to be angry. I want to get to be angry. I want to get to feel my feelings. I don't want to rationalize, I don't want to be reasonable, I don't want to be fair....

Tis the season! Alligator: different little alligators in festive gear Stationery: different pieces of things you can use to write fun letters and/or scrapbook (festive or otherwise) Book recommendations: I picture this one as getting 25 people in your life and/or whose taste in books you admire to each write a book recommendation (festive or otherwise) Movie recommendations: I picture this one as getting 25 people in your life and/or whose taste in movies you admire to each write a movie recommendation (festive or otherwise) Recipe recommendations: I picture this one as getting 25 people in your life and/or whose cooking sensibilities you admire to each write a recipe recommendation (festive or otherwise) Song recommendations: I picture this one as getting 25 people in your life and/or whose taste in music you admire to each write a song recommendation (festive or otherwise) Cocktail recommendations: I picture this one as getting 25 people in your life and/or whose taste...

Time for some confrontations. Chloe, given that you had told us, the viewers about Jonathan, you did have to tell your mom at some point I heard a theory that Chloe was the one being more treated as a side chick and I can see that It does seem like though, that Chloe and Jonathan had not had an exclusivity talk at that point I had forgotten that Greta had a friend group referred to as "The Wives Chat" Yikes, Greta got bit by a pig I really want Greta to be happy I'm sorry, Anthony, why do you think miming will add romance? How did Anthony and Manon end up together? I'm so confused Wait, is Dylan a big camper but DIDN'T bring mosquito repellent? I feel like Madelein needs therapy Madelein, how is this man your "peace"? I mean, I do think it's fair for Chloe's mom to have worries, but also, what can she do? I mean, I get not knowing how many potatoes is 1kg, but you could also, surely, either ask for help or Google it? Is Greta about to dump Matthe...

I'm sure I'm missing some, but these are ones that I have either heard great things about, bought from in-person, but can't speak to their online capabilities, or that I have been curious about. They are in no particular order. You can read my first   "15 websites (including Etsy shops) that I can't personally recommend for buying holiday gifts, but would still like to prom ote," my second "15 more websites (including Etsy shops) that I can't personally recommend for buying holiday gifts, but would still like to promote," and my third "Another 15 websites (including Etsy shops) that I can't personally recommend for buying holiday gifts, but would still like to promote" . I also wanted to, again, highlight my post  "15 websites (including Etsy shops) that I can personally recommend for buying holiday gifts" . I was inspired to do this by  We Ain’t Buying It , which is calling on people to stop shopping at Target, Home Dep...

Time for part 4 of the tell all! Gino, I don't believe your attempt at sincerity Matt is like "WTF is happening right now?" and, TBH, I agree Matt does a pretty solid Gino impression My question though, Jasmine, is does Mat tknow about this woman his mom wants to set him up with? Loren, this is not your business Okay, my big thing with Loren and Alexei is that they seem to be annoyed with being on TV, but they SUPER DUPER chose to be on this season I'm so sorry, Yara Okay, Andrei is correct that Yara is out of Jovi's league, but Guillermo is more correct Dammit, Jovi, THE most beautiful Jovi has "hundreds" of pageant trophies? I think it's fair for Alexei to tell Andrei not to call Noga a dog Jovi, what did you do? Okay so I CAN believe that Jovi says, while drunk, that he wants to get divorced or move back to Louisiana, but idk how seriously to take that Libby, you are drama, but like that's what we're here for I want to give Yara a hug Is J...

I'm sure I'm missing some, but these are ones that I have either heard great things about, bought from in-person, but can't speak to their online capabilities, or that I have been curious about. They are in no particular order. You can read my first   "15 websites (including Etsy shops) that I can't personally recommend for buying holida y gifts, but would still like to promote" and my second "15 more websites (including Etsy shops) that I can't personally recommend for buying holiday gifts, but would still like to promote" . I also wanted to, again, highlight my post  "15 websites (including Etsy shops) that I can personally recommend for buying holiday gifts" . I was inspired to do this by  We Ain’t Buying It , which is calling on people to stop shopping at Target, Home Depot, and Amazon between Thanksgiving Day and Cyber Monday (I do realize it is now after Thanksgiving). You can read more about this boycott on their website (linked...

Here are some short pieces based on things that have happened in my life recently.  Christmas Decorating I hope to start decorating for Christmas today. I do have a few deocrations out already, but they're out mostly because I took them out of the closet to get ready for today. I will need to dig more out, but I could only do so much yesterday (still having trouble getting stuff done these days). Is the last day of November too soon to decorate for Christmas? Should I wait until the first day of December? I mean, that is just tomorrow, but it's also a work day and today is a Sunday so I have more time and energy (in theory at least). My favorite Christmas decoration I have is probably my gingerbread nutcracker (whom I call Gustav). But I have a few other items as well that I need to prep and, for some, put batteries in. I'm probably most excited for my Christmas-y candles. Death Blart For those that don't know, Til Death Do Us Blart  (aka Death Blart ) is an eternal McE...